i don't know

Not sure if I can remember all the details but the story was clear as water.

Last night, a group of people and I were boarding a train. Some CalArts people were among the group, such as Joy. We were excited to go to the beautiful place, which was a pretty picnic beach sight. The grass and water were wonderful.
Just as the train was beginning to stop, nearly all of the compartment trains broke off suddenly, and being in one of the ones that broke off, I made a dash to grab hold on one of the compartments still attached. Now, the beginning of the rails were like a line in an amusement park, so I had two chances for the train to come by and for me to grab on. I missed the first two times and finally, determined, I made a damn leap for it and managed to grab on the last second, and there I went on into the trip.

So this was when I arrived at the place. I enjoyed it and Joy enjoyed it and there was some other person or maybe two (if it was one, for some reason I imagine it was Katie Rose). There was a notable large woman with a pixie cut there. There were these walls where you could push out shapes, as if they were paper.
Now I can't remember how I caught wind of it but I noticed that there was something wrong with this world; I was experiencing deja vu, specifically, when I arrived at the place. I had arrived for a second time. The large woman noticed my awareness and began to act malicious. I tried to warn Joy, but she hadn't noticed at all, still caught in the loop. Every time I tried to do something the woman would restart the arrival, and it would reset most of my mentality to forget about it. There was always a small, weak part that always remembered.

I eventually found out that pushing the paper shapes on the wall was what restarted the world. It took some tries before I finally got Joy's attention again and I whispered into her ear, "This is a parallel world." although I'm p sure I meant to say a time loop. Maybe it was both, who knows. But right after that, the time loop reset, so Joy forgot.

Joy eventually remembered; I can't remember how, but there's a way to keep people from forgetting. So then every time the time loop reset, we remembered. Joy set out to find a way to break out of it while I kept the antagonistic woman distracted. While keeping this up, Joy alerted me that the way to get out (Idk how she found out) that pushing out the little star shapes would be the ticket out of the world.
So while trying to avoid the antagonist's attacks, I would try to find little stars on the wall to push out. Sometimes I accidentally reset the world, but it was no problem now that I knew how to get out. Joy mostly pushed them all out while the antagonist kept attacking me.

By the end of it all, I remember notably that I ended the woman by setting up a bomb that was in the form of a microwave(??) in one of the rooms in the picnic area. I saw the world beginning to go red before my eyes; it was a sign that it will explode--that the time loop will shatter, and I threw my arms in the air and screamed out,

"WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

And we returned.

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There was also a separate part where I was with Wardell and Katie (girlfriend) and they were going to sleepover another person's place with their dolls. But I can't remember it enough.

But during the first part, I felt like a mixture of myself and Ruki, especially in the last part.

The dream was bigger, but this is what I mainly want to record. It was also part gamey.
Essentially, I was a girl who could see ghosts and for some reason I wanted to annihilate them--or perhaps it was setting them free? Or maybe the ghosts were not regular ghosts, but like a monster kind of ghosts. They had to be malicious because they were put in such a scary perspective.
At one point there were three choices I had to make, and I can only remember one of them was, "Become the next ____" it might've been Thing, but it sounds ridiculous. But the point was there was a rple to be /taken/, and I was already doing that role by bothering the ghosts.
While I was making my choice (like in an RPG horror game where they give you choices), I could see ghosts creeping up behind me. Scared, I tried to click all three choices but it wouldn't let me out of it until the very last second.
Before I know it, I am the next Thing. And in this new role I am warned that I must not let my presence be known to any of the ghosts--I can sneak and wipe them out very easily, however, when one learns of my presence I become trapped in the realm and I will be forever alone with the ghosts.
When I leave the room, there is a spirit at the end of the hallway. He is an old man cloaked in brown and he notices me; he gives me an intense stare that makes me super uncomfortable. The fear in my gut rising, I head over to the exit of the area. I even see some people along the way. I try to follow them out the exit only to learn I can't--it's like a glass wall. I learn that people can no longer touch or hear me, as I tried to reach out and call for them.
I am alone.

Two nights ago, early morning of the 30th, I dreamed of a waterscape. There were sunflowers growing out from the water, and when I dove, there were sunflowers there too, as if they've always belonged underwater. They were the prettiest, and something in the dream told me that they longed to get above the water for sunlight.

That's all the dream was. Just the ocean and sunflowers. No land. The sun. It was beautiful.

Yesterday I decided I will train myself to lucid dream, which actually involves recording dreams. Haha, how convenient for me!

( I don't remember everything but this is the most I was able to recall... )